Disobedience

Around this time last year I was in such a good place with GOD. I had made a decision to have an intimate relationship with GOD and allowed HIM to pour into my spirit. I gave HIM my time and HE became a priority in my life.

Fast-forward to February this year. I met a gentlemen that I felt was a good match for me. I explained to him that GOD was number ONE in my life and that I spent time with HIM first. He said he understood that GOD was the head of my life and for the first few weeks I continued to spend time with GOD first and then hang out with the guy I was dating second. As time went on I felt like I was stretching myself then. After working all day I didn’t have time for much else so....I only spent time with GOD in the mornings and my nightly run with GOD went out the door.

A few times during my morning worship with GOD I could tell I was not focused and that my heart and mind was not completely there. Those times were mostly when my personal relationship was not right. Throughout the relationship GOD would show me that I was disobedient by sending me to a scripture that would convict me but I still tried to make everything work out for my good.

Last month I realized that the relationship was not healthy and that I need to get back on track with GOD. I went back to the states and just spent time at home. It was perfect......

I was in a place for GOD to really tell me about myself and more importantly for me to listen. I came back to Kuwait a mess. I called my sisters and friends and told them until I was completely broken I could not talk to them or spend any time on social networks.  The first night I got back from vacation GOD woke me up out of my sleep to tell me that I put man before HIM. When I looked back I realized that I had...it BROKE my heart that I did that to my FATHER. I immediately repented and cried out to HIM

The next couple of days felt so strange. It was like I was a little kid who had disappointed their parent. I wanted to be under GOD but I was so ashamed (like Adam and Eve) that I was hiding from HIM. One morning I was standing in front of the mirror and GOD said I have forgiven you and no longer remember your sins you need to do the same so you can move on. I talked to one of my girlfriends later that morning and she also said I needed to forgive myself and even led me in prayer to let go of the guilt. I needed to move on.....

I desire more than anything to have an intimate relationship with GOD...HE IS FIRST over all things! I am thankful to HIM for RESTORATION, GRACE and MERCY!

I would like to thank my mom who fasted and prayed for me during this time....YOU ROCK WOMAN OF GOD!

Psalms 23:3

Psalms 119:25-40 

Blessings

A'keta Julinate'

GOD's LOVE

Sunday past was Father's Day and while I was in church GOD reminded me of a time in my life that I yearned for the love of my biological father.  I was in my early 20s and had met my biological father a few times only for him to deny my brother and I on all occasions.  Growing up I felt rejected by him and it affected my life.  I can remember crying over him and wishing he loved my brother and I like he loved his others kids.  IT HURT!  As I got older and started dating the rejection affected my relationships.  I didn't feel pretty enough or adequate enough because if my own father didn't love me then how can anyone else.

When I was about 25 GOD delivered me! Hallejuah I was at church one Sunday and I can remember being in  pain (emotionally) and crying out to GOD.  GOD met me there at the alter.  HE wrapped me in HIS arms and said "CRY no more over this man. I have sent you two dads that love you unconditionally and NOT only that I am your DADDY.  I am here for you ALWAYS!" 

At that moment I was delivered from the spirit of rejection and my biological father's actions no longer affected me.  GOD was right I had two DADS who loved me..mistakes and all!  LOL  Most importantly MY GOD LOVED ME!

Two years later when I got married I was okay when my biological father declined my invitation to my wedding.  My wonderful Fathers Otis and James and my twin brother Antonius (who as always acted like my daddy...lol) walked me down the aisle. 

Today I still pray for my biological father that GOD will deliver him and I wish him well.

Thank you GOD for reminding me of where you brought me from!  Thank you for your unconditional LOVE!  Thank you for taking care of every situation in my life!  I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DADDY!

Ephesians 3: 17-19

1 Corinthians 13:13

Blessings
A'keta Julinate' 

Happy Mother's Day!

I would like to wish my beautiful mother a Happy Mother's Day! Growing up everyone would tell me I was my mother's child but I didn't want to be ANYTHING like her. I rebelled and became the total OPPOSITE of her(she is a goody to shoes...lol). We had more than our fair share of spats and I am sure I said some hurtful things(truth be told I know I said some hurtful things).  I can distinctly remember when our relationship changed...I was 29 going on 30 and I was going through a rough time in my life but my mother was my ROCK! She allowed me to cry on her shoulders and was there for me at all times of the night and never complained. She spoke LIFE into me daily and always had a word for me! One prophetic word was I may not remember my 20s but I was definitely going to remember my 30s....I was going to come into my own! Hallelujah she was so right...lol. Just as our relationship was changing GOD opened the door for my mother to go to work oversees. We had conversation before she left and during the conversation she said I was her friend. As a teenagers my mom would always tell me I am not your friend I am you mother( I am sure we have all heard that at one time or another) so to hear her say that was awesome. Today I have the BEST relationship with my mother and it is my desire to be EXACTLY like her! She is my encourager, my minister, my prayer partner, my protector, my intercessor, my prophetess, my adviser and she is also my best friend! Now it doesn't bother me at all when people call me lil Andrena...I look like her and act like her but it is my desire to be a woman of GOD like her. 

Mama I LOVE you with EVERYTHING that is me! I pray you have the best day and I am counting down the days until we see each other again! 

Proverbs 31:10, 25-30 Who can find a virtuous woman? She is far more precious than jewels... Strength and honor are her clothing, and she can laugh at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and loving instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the activities of her household and is never idle. Her sons rise up and call her blessed. Her husband also praises her: Many women are capable, but you surpass them all! Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord will be praised. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Love is patient; love is kind. Love is not jealous; is not proud; is not conceited; does not act foolishly; is not selfish; is not easily provoked to anger; keeps no record of wrongs; takes no pleasure in unrighteousness, but rejoices in the truth; love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things. 

 

Blessings

A'Keta Julinate'

Crying out to GOD!

Whew GOD is so AWESOME! The more and more I study HIS word and cry out to HIM the more HE reveals HIMSELF to me.  Whatever issue I am going through HE sends me a word to deal with that very issue. HE wants to work everything out for HIS good and it is up to me to listen and follow HIS word. I am so thankful for the relationship I have with HIM. I pray that our relationship continues to grow and that I will go from GLORY to GLORY! 

2 Timothy 3:16-17 - All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be equipped for every good work.

James 1:22 - Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 

Blessings!

A'Keta Julinate'

Your Best Life Now!

Good Sunday Everyone!

Earlier this week my mother asked for all of my siblings and I to read

"Your Best Life Now 90 Devotions for Living at Your Full Potential" by Joel Osteen.  Earlier this year I read "Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential" and it was such a blessing to me so I was excited to read this devotion and even more excited to read it with my family!

Join us in reading this devotion for the next 90 days! It is my prayer that it will be a blessing to you!

Hebrew 11:1 Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.

Blessings 

A'Keta Julinate' 

My Prayer!

 

This morning during prayer I asked GOD to allow me to be a better person today than I was yesterday. It is always my desire to BE INVITING to others so I can share the goodness of GOD though conversation, a smile, a hug or other gestures. Working on a Military base I come in contact with different types of people daily and if my spirit/attitude is not right how I am going to represent GOD! Psalms 51:10 says create in me a pure heart, O GOD, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.  In order for me to have a clean heart I have to tell my flesh to die daily!  When I accepted the LORD JESUS CHRIST as my personal savior I became a NEW CREATURE in CHRIST (2 Corinthians5:17) and my old self was crucified with JESUS (Romans 6:6).  Because of my willingness to please GOD I believe HE will renew my spirit daily and I am going to declare a fresh anointing over my life.

I am willing today to have a clean heart! What about you?

I encourage you to study GOD's word. I am learning so much while I am blogging and it is helping me be a better person and more so a better CHRISTIAN (GLORY)!

Happy Resurrection Sunday!

Matthew 28: 6 says HE in not here; HE has Risen, just as HE said. Come and see the place where HE lay.

Today is the last day of Passion Week(Holy Week) and it has been declared that JESUS lives! As I look back over this week and how excited I was for weeks about Resurrection Sunday I realized that being passionate about JESUS  is so awesome and feels so right that I want to be passionate about HIM daily not because HE does something for me. That Friday when HE died on the cross for me 2000yrs ago HE did enough (Hallelujah)! 

Today I rejoice in knowing that JESUS loves me! AMEN 

Blessings
A'Keta Julinate'